Be Careful What You Pray For, Because You Just Might Get It.

I prayed for God to stretch me for me to be who he wants and needs me to be. Little did I know that this prayer would cause so much. Upon saying this prayer, God immediately(and I do mean immediately) started to go to work. So many situations arose that I'm still sitting here with a headache. Old problems, new problems, recent troubles all rose up and struck me at once. It's like all the Colossi in my life rose up and brought more temporary friends along with them and just fell on me. Through me, Christ has conquered some of them, but there are so many of them that it's getting harder and harder to take them down. Thinking about it, this must have been what Paul meant by saying we run a race. Races are long and take endurance and mini-achievements to get to the bigger goal. The bigger goal being becoming more like Christ. The journey's just not the best part lol. It's something we all need though. What bothers me about it is that it all comes down to me losing focus on what matters. God. I lose focus that it's not about me and I keep trying to make it about me. There's only one thing I can honestly do. Say Thanks. Thank you God for stretching me to who you need me to be and I'll endure by you and through you. I find it so hard to say those words, but I know that it's true. I'm nothing. I've never been anything and I'll never be anything. But I'm a child of God, and that's something. So I'll always be a "nobody who's a somebody". Time's like this are hard in life, especially when the people you would think would be there aren't and the one's you don't expect are. There's one that will always be here thought...God. He's the reason for everything. If he can take care of a sparrow, he can take care of me. I know it doesn't make sense now and hard stuff may be on the horizon, but I'm ready because greater is He who is in me that he who is the world.

I just want to leave you guys with this verse, just in case some of you are going through a time too.

Psalm 25:10
All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful for those who keep the demands of his covenant.